Does anyone else think 2010 sounds futuristic and mysterious? And yet, here it is. Strange.
The future always seems so far away, and then suddenly it lands at our feet as the present. Then it whizzes by at the speed of light and becomes the past. It just goes so fast!
When I was a child, I tried to imagine myself all grown up. (Actually, I still do, but that’s a completely different subject) It seemed like I would be a kid forever, even as I longed for a time I could do what I wanted and do things my way. I would think about some faceless person who would be my really cool and loving husband, I would imagine my perfect and tidy kids, and my beautiful clean house. I would have a really nifty job that never got in the way of doing whatever I wanted to do. And for some reason I always imagined myself really wealthy.
Reality. That faceless guy ended up being my best friend, and is generally both cool and loving, but he’s also a human being, not a life-size plastic Ken doll. He makes me smile, makes me laugh and makes me want to smack him on occasion. Much better than I had imagined, except I always imagined the faceless guy with lots of hair. And maybe more attentive to me than to fishing. Wrong on both counts there!
Reality. My kids are neither perfect nor tidy, and either is my house. The well-mannered little robots I imagined are a far cry from the smart aleck, funny, crazy kids I have. Once I accepted living in a constant state of confusion whenever they were around, it was exhilarating. Again, the reality is better than what I had imagined. Yes, the house looks like we live in it, and we always seem to be working on something. But we’ve put so much time and effort into it that it feels like a part of our family.
Reality. Nifty job? Well, it has its moments, but it can break my heart at times or give me nightmares. It can also be a total rush. I have gotten the opportunities to do things I never imagined, and have met some of the most interesting people along the way. As for never getting in the way of what I want to do, well, life just doesn’t work that way. My job is more flexible than many, but it still requires attendance.
Reality. Wealthy? Ha ha ha ha ha! Enough said.
Now I am (technically and legally) a grown up, and it isn’t quite what I tried to imagine. I still can’t do what I want whenever I want, or always do things my way.
Everything seemed so far off in the future. When I was in junior high, 1985, the year I was to graduate, seemed like it would never come. Eventually it did, of course. Then it seemed as though my children would be babies forever, dependent and needy, like wonderful little bowling balls forever chained to my ankle. Now, one lives 200 miles away, another is in college and my baby is a year away from graduating and leaving us behind as he pursues his own future. They are doing what they are supposed to do.
If someone had asked me as a child what 2010 would look like, I probably would have imagined robots and space ships and all things Jetson. In reality, it just looks like life.
I’ll leave you with one of my favorite quotes…nobody seems to know who first said it, but I heard it from a turtle.
Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That’s why we call it the present.
Happy New Year to all my readers and everyone else out there. May your new year be full of more blessings, smiles and laughter, and less dirty laundry.
That doesn’t mean you should quit reading my blog, though.